Happiness gone..still i feel especial myself.!!

Days are beautiful so m i having fun with all my family but still i miss something on me.I find myself in dark and they way i used to smile is nomore on my face.Is it that i have become more selfish that i can"t be happy when others are happy.I have many questions that have been playing around my mind.I have been hanging around a fake smile...Things bothering me & 

I have been going through those things & I know how does that feel..to be hurt and to get hurt.I can"t trust anybody anymore..nor expectation word is inside me.I have left everything even  my smile.People are there for me but i seem they have become trustless.There is nobody that i can trust.Though i have weakness i"m not going to show that.I won"t be looking back again & kindness word won"t be easy for me.I feel lonliness inside me but i guess that wouldn"t be my weak point.People who were with me and pretended to be with me,i will make sure you to regret how especial i am.I haven"t died with my feelings i will be working hard on my future.

Thanks everyone for leaving me..Finally I learned something from you people & how selfish you people were.??